27/12/10

My First Ever Dairy

Dear Greed,

I cant seem to put the "tab" function in this, so you have to read it as it is. Dont get get mad, dude.
So, today is the first time i've written a diary before, not sure how its written before , but HEY, who the HELL cares? :D

Today, i have decided agaisnt many things, Greed. Can i call you greed? i can call you Dante too., sometimes. The first thing i've decided is, i really am sux at add maths D:
Reason? 58% in the first test? THE FUCK???? three of the wrongs i made is because i'm too damn careless T-T
Although this is my first entry toward this "blog", i'm already gotten to know you Greed. And you know me, much more. These are what i'm going to tell you, what you already now though. Reason?

I NEED TO LET THIS FUCKEN FEELING OUT BEFORE I EXPLODE!

and besides, NO ONE will be able to find this thing right???

Yes, i've "fallen" in love many times... and most of them i cant really differentiate between your sister, Lust, or the real thing altogether... i dont know Greed... i just dont know... i dont really care much though,
EVERYTHING THAT HAPPENED MUST HAVE A REASON
even if i dont know hell about that reason is...
radin's not on again today... T-T
i dont know.. something's happening i guess... talking about her, i wanna ask you something...
Did i do the right thing? I mean, us, telling her my feelings and all? i mean, for 4 damn years you hold it up like it was some kinda taboo and suddenly YOU took control of me and BOOM! everything "i" have said seems to make sense... the hell, you know i've been watching her ALWAYS. That particular feeling when Vergil sensed her right? well, some people can "see" auras, me? i can sense some of the most important people around me... i'm not sure when it appeared but, hey, its good for me.... i can sense her a mile away...
dude... shes so damn beautiful.... it just doesnt seem right. i mean, a guy like me? with HER?
shes far better off without me... i mean, shes already happy with her man, WHY THE HELL DO I HAVE TO INTERFERE????? what gives me the right to tell her "I love you"??? nothing thats what.... you cant even promise her happiness or the like... let alone to feel love

thats probably why i have to get these things outta my head greed... its taking up WAY too much space in my head... and thats probably why i still want to talk to her, even if i wont be speaking much....
YOU tend to come out when i talk to her, even worse, Lust....
yeah, i envy her man but, hey, what the hell can i do about it? i'm not even in his league... not even in his competition...

in some more days im gonna meet her again. not sure if Fuma's ready yet at that time.... yeah, need to find a face for him... where though? i think that face should do it... but i dont know, that face seems A LOT like you Dante. he will be on when school starts though... time to get serious right? :))))
its time i get someone to do the boring and endless job like this.... and thats him, FUMA

so, erm, i dont know how to let go of this feeling in words but... i'll try my best.

Bye Greed.... see you next time.

Regards,
L.E.G.
Lust
   Envy
      Greed